I seem to have hit a wall. I hear that during a marathon one hits a wall whereupon life sucks and you want to die and stop running. I plan for that to happen for me, come October. I also plan to bust through that bitch.
What I mean is, I have a hit a wall in life. I moved months ago and since then have been seeing a boy who broke my heart a little, and that sucks. My running hit a sort of standstill because I am struggling, and that sucks. I feel like my ass is getting bigger, even though the scale says it isn't, and that sucks. The status of my bank account really sucks. Still being afraid and not sleeping, and feeling like my life is a jumble of craziness sucks a lot. All in all, I am frustrated and don't know what to do with myself.
I figure this happens to everyone in life, right? So I tell myself that tomorrow I'll do better, tomorrow I'll get up and run 10 miles like I plan to and I'll forget about boys who treat me like crap, and I'll listen to Kelly Clarkson and eat spinach and be awesome and cheerful. A new boy will love me someday, I will write on my blog regularly, I will be awesome, and I'll finish all the DVDs of "Buffy the Vampire Slayer" that Shawna lent me.
But I am sad about this boy. My heart hurts a little. I remember why I don't like to let people get close to me. Ice cream is yummier than spinach. Napping is good. Running 10 miles is hard. And sometimes I don't listen to even myself.
How does one fix that?
By the way, tomorrow I am going to run 10 miles. And eat spinach. And love life again. It's my plan.
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lady, you hang in there. You ROCK! You have accomplished SO MUCH for yourself-focus on that! Try to use all of that awesomeness to push you through.
Boys suck. They always will. Even when they love you they will still leave their dirty laundry everywhere and fart. You have to kiss a lot of toads before you find anything that could pass for a prince.
Hang in there! I'm still reading!
Well, Becky summed it up. Especially that even when boys love you they leave dirty laundry on the floor and fart. I love you chica and think you are most awesome. Hang in there - life always gets better!
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